Debt

I’m in debt to my younger self for stealing time and spending it pretending to be someone I wasn’t. And since I can’t repay lost time I need to find other ways of compensation. So to overcompensate and cut the losses I subtract any future opportunities of falling to the same downfall. For that reason I carve into my skin simple signs reading aloud: “I am as I am”, so that innocent bystanders passing by may not confuse and misunderstand who I am versus who I’ve yet to pretend to be. This is payment for time I can’t get back by forfeiture of time I don’t yet have, and as I cannot skip pages in this book of life and read an unwritten future it becomes a lesson learned for what plot twists my character is yet to endure. Thus I am forcing faith in my own self while I am still figuring out who my own self is, and doing so I am spending my present moments being the only person I should ever pretend to be: my own self.